50 [MORE] Fun Facts About Me!

50 [MORE] Fun Facts About Me!

I’m back with even MORE *fun* facts about me!  I always enjoy getting to know others, so I really like doing these blog posts/videos.  Leave some fun facts about yourself in the comments!

  1. I bruise like a peach
  2. I collect shot glasses
  3. I’ve only worked at two places since I was 13 years old
  4. I had braces for three years, including a palette expander, spacers, elastics, retainers, and many oral surgeries
  5. I won “Best Smile” in high school
  6. My fear in life is smashing my face (because of all the extensive work done to my teeth – I really don’t want to go thru that again)
  7. I love the smell of sawdust, wood, and bullet heaters – I even have a candle from Yankee Candle called “2×4” that smells like wood
  8. I’m naturally a fast walker – sometimes my husband can’t keep up with me
  9. HATE the number 9
  10. I LOVE rollercoasters and amusement parks – I’m somewhat of a thrill seeker
  11. I rock back and forth when I’m lounging around
  12. I love to sneeze, it’s so relieving
  13. I would love to have grey/silver hair
  14. I crack my knuckles a LOT
  15. I think it’s creepy when people whistle
  16. I hate people who lack any manners
  17. I’m only 5’2″
  18. I cry when I see others cry – good or bad tears
  19. I hate the smell of the ocean
  20. I chew the inside of my cheeks all day
  21. I cannot sleep on my back
  22. I’m a very active person, I’m not so much the type to just relax on a beach or do yoga
  23. I listen to all types of music – pop, alternative rock, classical, heavy metal, blues, folk
  24. My favorite ice cream flavor is black raspberry
  25. I cannot sleep without the television being on
  26. The smell of eggs being cooked makes me nauseous
  27. I really don’t like loud people
  28. I like to eat baby [rice] cereal for breakfast
  29. LOVE thunderstorms
  30. I love city noises – cars driving by, car horns, ambulances, etc.
  31. My mood is super affected by weather and lighting
  32. My husband and I got married at City Hall; no big wedding
  33. I am afraid of the dark…or what could be hidden in the dark, rather
  34. I’m always warm – my body radiates heat
  35. I love blankets (being cozy)
  36. HATE being late, it’s makes me anxious
  37. I’ve never broken a bone
  38. I have a photographic memory
  39. I have the same birthday as my pepere
  40. I am really good at keeping secrets
  41. My favorite weather is when it’s sunny and raining at the same time
  42. I’m really good at Flip Cup
  43. I cannot sleep without a blanket
  44. I really enjoy flying
  45. My favorite flowers are Peonies; coral, preferably
  46. I cross my T’s before I write the stem
  47. Halloween is my favorite holiday
  48. hate the sound that a crow makes
  49. I am not ticklish
  50. I don’t follow any religion




How to Deal with Death – Top Tips

How to Deal with Death – Top Tips

Unfortunately, we all have to deal with death at some point in our lives, but fortunately, we are all in it together and I have some tips to share with you to help you get through it.

It’s very important to know that there are steps in the grieving process that everyone goes through, and sometimes, it can take longer to get through some of the steps in the grieving process than you might expect.

Here are the steps in the grieving process:

  1. Denial/Shock
    I’m sure everyone’s first response to news of the passing of a loved one is, “what?”  Of course, the death of a loved one is never truly expected; it’s shocking to hear the news and for some reason, your body/mind initially reject the news or idea of that person not being around any longer.
  2. Pain/Guilt
    Of course, the death of a loved one is painful – nobody wants to be without their loved one, and guilt, that’s a really difficult stage, especially for me.  I have dealt with many suicides of loved ones in my life, and guilt has always been the step that takes me the longest to get through.  I often feel guilt for the suicides because it always feels like I could (should) have done more to ensure that person knew just how much they were loved.
  3. Anger/Bargaining
    It’s very common to feel angry after the death of a loved one; how can you not be angry – your loved one is no longer physically around.  Fortunately, this is one of the stages that I find is easiest to get through…mostly because the sadness takes over, but still, it’s very hard to feel angry at or about the death of a loved one, at least that’s what I find.
  4. Depression/Reflection/Loneliness
    Ah, depression – the most common, and worst stage.  Sadness and depression are the emotions that immediately come to mind when you think of the death of a loved one.  Many times, it can feel like getting back to normal everyday living will never come during this stage, and that’s normal, it’s okay.  This is also the stage that most people will reflect on the death of your loved one, which can bring more emotions of depression and loneliness, but it’s important to know that you’re not actually alone – there are many people who love and care about you that are available and willing to help get you through this difficult situation.
  5. Upward Turn
    This is the stage where you will typically start to feel a little better, and make a turn toward the end of the grieving process.  During this stage, you start to feel a little better, and start to let go of some of the sadness.
  6. Reconstruction/Working Through
    This is the stage where you start to get back into your normal every day living and adjusting your life without your loved one being around.  During this step, you will also start to work through all of the emotions that you just experienced, and also start to work through the facts of the actual death.
  7. Acceptance
    Finally, you will reach the acceptance stage, but it isn’t easy to get here – this can take YEARS to reach.  When my pepere died, I didn’t actually accept it until maybe five years later.  Be patient, and do what you need to do to get through this.  Acceptance is the goal, obviously, because you will prove that you can get through it, and you can move on and live your life, knowing that you’re not forgetting that person, just adjusting your life without them.

Besides the 7-Step Grieving Process, here are my other top tips to help you get through the death of a loved one:

  • Realize that everyone grieves differently, and however you grieve is up to you, it’s your prerogative, and it’s okay
  • Open up and talk about it, but ONLY when you’re ready – don’t rush it
  • Allow yourself to be vulnerable; this isn’t an easy process and you can’t be the strongest person in the world all the time – it’s okay
  • Let others be there for you, and lean on them when you need them
  • Know that you’re allowed to be messed up for a while.  Again, this is NOT an easy process, you’ll get there, but you might be a little fucked up for a bit
  • DO NOT turn to drugs or alcohol – that never ends well
  • Take a vacation, a mini-vaca, or even a little staycation – take time for YOURSELF to take care of you
  • Do something you love.  Again, you need to take care of yourself and doing something that you [normally] love to do, might help speed up the process and help you feel like a normal human being again.  I know it’s hard to do anything fun during the grieving process, but it’s important to take care of yourself
  • Cherish the good memories you have with that lost loved one.  Believe me, they would want you to celebrate their life rather than make yourself feel worse.
  • Give yourself time, be patient, the grieving process is not an easy, or quick one – be gentle with yourself.



Ulta Haul!

Ulta Haul!

Well, it’s no secret that I LOVE makeup and LOVE Ulta…maybe a little too much, but oh well!  I love Ulta because it’s the best of both worlds, you have the high-end side and the drugstore side – they have everything any beauty/makeup lover could possibly want/need!!

I decided to treat myself to some goodies that I’ve had my eye on for a while now so I thought I would share them with you.  Here’s what I got in my most recent Ulta haul:

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Ulta Beauty Full Coverage Concealer $9
OMG if this isn’t the most perfect, affordable, drugstore concealer, I don’t know what is?! This concealer is so full coverage, so easy to blend out, and has a beautiful finish that doesn’t look cakey at all!

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Ulta Beauty Matte Makeup Setting Spray $10
I will never ever need to purchase any other kind of matte makeup setting spray because this Ulta beauty Matte Makeup Setting Spray is my new holy grail!  WOW does it work and for SO long!!!!  When I use this product, my makeup is locked in ALL DAY LONG – it’s amazing!!  It feels very wet when spraying on the face because it’s not a super fine mist, it’s more like a spritz, but it doesn’t dry that way, no spots left on your face, it has a wonderfully airbrushed finish and boy does it smell beautiful!

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Ulta Beauty Color Correcting Face Stick in “Yellow” $9
I use this product to try to conceal my [horrible] tattooed eyebrows because of course, they have that blue tone, which yellow counters/covers.  I really enjoy this color correcting stick, it has a nice formula that blends out nicely and doesn’t turn my foundation yellow!

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Ulta Beauty Gel Eyeliner Pencil in “Black Out” $8
I only really use eyeliner pencils to line my water line, not to create any type of winged eyeliner (I use liquid eyeliner for that), and this one gets the job done.  It’s not my absolute favorite eyeliner pencil because it’s not waterproof (my mistake for not looking harder for a waterproof gel eyeliner pencil) so it tends to smudge down onto my lower water line and a bit below my eye throughout the day, but it’s not a huge deal.  The color is super black and super pigmented – great for the cost.

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The Body Shop Tea Tree Face Mask $17
Can you believe I’ve yet to try this face mask?!  WHYYYYY?!  Stay tuned for my review…

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The Body Shop Skin Mattifying Lotion $15
If you didn’t already know, tea tree is amazing for oily skin, but so is moisturizing!!  The fact that this moisturizer has tea tree in it, makes it absolutely perfect for someone like me with incredibly oily skin!  I love this mattifying lotion, I really won’t purchase any other face moisturizer again – totally worth spending $15 for a daily moisturizer!

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Catrice Prime & Fine Professional Contouring Palette $7.99
Another product that I’ve yet to try, but it looks SO promising just based on the swatches! Review coming soon…

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Freeman Feeling Beautiful Pear Pore Cleansing Mask $4.29
Okay, so the Pear Pore Cleansing Mask is no longer available at Ulta (I got mine during a clearance event), but I have tried it and I do like it.  I think there are some better face mask options out there, especially from Freeman, but it’s not a bad face mask at all!  If you happen to stumble upon the Freeman Feeling Beautiful Pear Pore Cleansing Mask, it’s a pretty good face mask, but personally, I prefer the above face mask by Freeman, the Mint & Lemon Clay Mask, which has similar ingredients to the Body Shop Tea Tree Face Mask, but is obviously the more affordable choice – I would highly recommend the Freeman Mint & Lemon Clay Mask if you have problematic, combo, and/or oily skin!

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7th Heaven 2-in-1 Charcoal Mask $1.99
literally have this mask on as I type this blog post :o) I really really enjoy this mask.  First, the smell, is so nice and refreshing, not at all how I expected it to smell.  This mask doesn’t feel too heavy or sticky on my skin and it’s drying down nicely!  For $1.99, I really really enjoy this – I wish they sold this in a full-size version instead of the one-time use packs.

What kind of goodies have you found at Ulta lately???



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Ulta Beauty Haul

Ulta Beauty Haul

I sure do love me some Ulta Beauty!  I love makeup in general, but Ulta is just the most perfect beauty store, EVER!  At Ulta, you get high-end beauty products AND drugstore products; it’s a one-stop shop, all the employees are so nice and so helpful, and it is my heaven!

A new Ulta store opened up near my work so I took full advantage and treated myself a bit during their Grand Opening weekend! Why not, it is National Splurge Day, right?!

Here’s the goodies that I got:

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Ulta Salon Formula Nail Lacquer in “Blue Right Past You” $6
The most gorgeous robin’s egg blue; perfect for my pale skin tone!

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Ulta Salon Formula Nail Lacquer in “Showgirl” $6
I love corals against my pale skin tone, and this one is PERFECT for the summer!

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Not Your Mother’s Way to Grow Long & Strong Shampoo $5.99
I ‘ve heard SO many great things about this shampoo, and I can’t wait to start using it!  My hair has never grown very quickly, and even though I use a buttload of heat protectants, it doesn’t help that I use heat on it almost every single day – hopefully this shampoo will help my hair grow longer and stronger as it claims to!

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Ulta Matte Neutrals Eyeshadow Palette $20
OMG these shades are GORGEOUS!  I’m in love with matte eyeshadows and this palette is perfect for me!  Cool-toned, matte, extremely pigmented, and easy to blend out – what more can a girl ask for?!

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Ulta Rose Gold Eyeshadow Palette $20
I’m branching out from only using matte shades, and this palette seems like the perfect way to add some shimmer into my matte eyeshadow looks!  Rose gold is very in right now, and I’m into it – it’s my new obsession; these shades are PERFECT!

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Ulta Matte Lip Cream in “Bossy” $9
I’m on the fence about this lip cream, I don’t find it very long-lasting, and it doesn’t really dry down.  It is matte, but by not drying down, it wipes off very easily.  The color isn’t perfect for my skin tone either, but that’s nothing against the product, obviously, that’s just me.

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Essence Make Me Brow Eyebrow Gel Mascara in “03 Soft Browny Brows” $2.99
I always looked for this product in my local Target, but could never find it in the right shade; they always had the darkest brown OR the blonde, but never the middle shade, which is perfect for me, but of course, Ulta came through!

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Benefit Cosmetics The POREfessional: Matte Rescue Invisible-Finish Mattifying Gel Mini $10
I’m OBSESSED with this product – the cashier was absolutely right, once I tried it, I never ever want to use a different primer again!  It’s so mattifying, but doesn’t dry out my skin, and it literally sets the best base for my makeup.  I find that when I use this, my makeup just applies differently (SO MUCH BETTER) and makes me look airbrushed.  It’s my savior and my holy grail!!  I will definitely be purchasing the full-size – SO worth it!

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Makeup Revolution Matte Blush in “Beloved” $5
For $5, these blushes are beautiful, creamy, super pigmented, and easy to apply and blend out!  Their only downfall is they don’t last a super long time, but I mean, for $5, they’re pretty fricken great!

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Makeup Revolution Matte Blush in “Fusion” $5

What are some of your favorite beauty products at Ulta Beauty?


I also filmed this unboxing:



Sephora Play! Unboxing May 2017

Sephora Play! Unboxing May 2017


These past few months, I haven’t exactly been wowed by IPSY Glambags, so I wanted to switch it up a bit; I decided to swap out my IPSY Glambag monthly subscription for the monthly Sephora Play! box just to see which one I may like better.

I love myself some IPSY Glambags, but sometimes, you just need to shake it up a bit.  I plan on only subscribing to the Sephora Play! box for the summer, then I will re-evaluate and decide if I want to continue with the Sephora Play! box or not, and if I want to go back with IPSY Glambags.

PROS of Sephora Play! box:

  • all items in the Sephora Play! box are available at Sephora stores and sephora.com
  • bags aren’t always “makeup” bags – they come in different forms
  • brands are wider-known
  • complimentary perfume sample in addition to your 5 monthly items
  • free shipping
  • comes with pamphlet/brochure listing all of the products in the bag, a card that you can bring to Sephora to use for many things (explained in the monthly pamphlet)

CONS of Sephora Play! box:

  • monthly fee is $10 + tax
  • samples aren’t exactly huge…but they’re not foil packets, so I’m happy!

I LOVE Sephora, let’s jump in and see what’s in the May 2017 Sephora Play! Beauty Box:

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trèStiQue Highlight & Perfect Multipurpose Stick $34
This highlighter is GORGEOUS!  I am super impressed by the pigmentation and the creamy formula!

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belif Hungarian Water Essence $42

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NUDESTIX Magnetic Matte Lip Color in “Greystone” $24
This shade is quite deep, and more on the brownish side so for me, this is more of a Fall shade, but the formula seems GREAT!  I swatched this on the back of my hand and it took some serious scrubbing to get it off – should be super duper long-wearing!

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rahua Omega 9 Hair Mask $58
This hair mask is amazing and I’m so glad I got a chance to try it!  When I use this, my hair looks so damn healthy!!!

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Tatcha Pure One Step Camellia Cleansing Oil $48
I have super oily skin so I’m kind of scared of this product, when I tried it just on the back of my hand, it seemed really oily…I’m scared.

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TOCCA Stella $38-72
I really like the smell of this fragrance, it’s sexy and a little woodsy – it seems perfect for a date night…but I’m not sure my husband will love it because it has a slight “old lady” scent to it…fingers crossed!

I also filmed an Unboxing video for this (my very first) Sephora Play! box:



Dear, Abuser

Dear, Abuser

“Dear, Asshead” wasn’t an appropriate title/opening, but either way, you get the gist; I decided to write a letter to my abuser to get some stuff off my chest.  I’m learning that stuff like this is very important for my healing.  Fingers crossed.


Dear, Abuser.

It’s now been 10 years since I escaped and 7 years since I last saw you in person, but I still remember every single detail about you.   remember all of your facial features, your mannerisms, your lisp, the sound of your voice; in an instant, I can recall exactly what your voice sounds like.  To me, it’s like a curse, I’m cursed with never being able to forget you and forget what you look like, what your hands feel like around my throat – I just cannot forget any part of you, both the good and the bad.

Although you were never convicted of the abuse you unleashed on me, and you’ve never admitted what you’ve done, I truly believe you know what you did was wrong and just how wrong it was.  It does sadden me that you were never convicted and never served any time for what you did to me because it just means you’re free to do it to someone else, but in the same breath, you’ve chosen to live a sad and pitiful life of crime by taking advantage of others, which you do actually serve time for, so in a sense, that’s a little bit of a relief because that’s less of a chance that you’re out abusing someone else.  Your choices, both past and present, anger and sadden me because you could be a better person, there are so many parts of you that aren’t completely evil, but you still choose to be a shithead.

I’m still figuring out what it means to forgive you; it’s been a long and tough process, and I still don’t know which direction I’m going in.  The night terrors, anxiety, health issues, depression, and irrational fears that I now suffer from, make it really difficult to forgive you.

I’m thankful that this entire experience has shown me just how strong I really am and has also shown me what I’m worth.  I’ve lost many many friends because of you, but I’ve also grown much closer to my family because of it.  Because of your abuse, I’ve been able to see the best parts of being alive, and feeling what real love truly feels like from my husband and my family.  I have found bliss.  Your actions and choices will forever prevent you from ever feeling true love and true happiness and I believe that is your life sentence, the time you’re going to serve, your punishment, your karma, and your destiny.  What you’ve done to me has been both and worst and best thing to ever happen to me.  Although I do suffer some sort of consequence or reminder of you every single day, I know that the good parts far outweigh the shitty parts of each day.  Your life is the exact opposite of that, and in some way, that sort of brings me relief and helps me to heal; I know that sounds shallow and bitter and mean, but that’s karma, and those are our destinies.

I hope you never unleash your abuse on any other person, ever, but if you unfortunately do, know that you’re weak, you’re a very small, petty boy, and abusing others doesn’t make you a bigger man – so, is it worth it?

I used to think you had potential to be better, even after the abuse, and I sometimes think about the fun, happy times we shared, but I know that’s not the real you, and the thought of you having any potential to be better to someone else quickly fades because of your own choices and actions within the last 10 years.

I don’t wish you anything; I don’t wish you the best, and I don’t wish you the worst.  I really only wish you whatever your own karma brings you.  I dream of the days that I’m no longer haunted by you and all the abuse and all the repercussions that I now have to deal with because of you – I DREAM of those days because then I know my soul can finally be free.

I don’t hate you.  I don’t like you either.  I feel nothing.

I don’t want to live my life with anger inside of me and some days it’s a little harder than others, but my husband is nothing like you, and he makes every single moment worth it.  If I didn’t go through what you put me through, I may not have ever met my husband.  I’m not thanking you for what you did, because what you’ve done is shitty, and stupid, but the path that has led me to my husband involves you, but that’s all there is, there’s nothing to thank you for.  I’ve proven to myself how strong I am, how strong I can be, and just how worthy of love I am, and it sucks that I really can’t say the same for you.

– A


Chaps My Cheeks

Chaps My Cheeks

UGH, we all have those certain things that just get right under our skin and rub us the wrong way, I call them things that CHAP MY CHEEKS!

I’m positive some of these things aggravate others too!  Let’s discuss, shall we?

  • Friends that take FOREVER to text back, but are constantly on their phone in your presence
    • I mean, how can you NOT take this personally?!
    • If it takes you three days to text me back, how come when we’re spending “quality” time together, you’re texting someone else back AS SOON AS THEY TEXT YOU?!
    • That makes me feel like I’m second best…or even worse, less important, and last choice!
  • When nobody tells you you have food in your teeth, a bat in the cave, melting makeup, etc.
    • This doesn’t have to be a big, embarrassing scene, all you have to do is discretely tell me, it’s no big deal
    • Help a girl out, wheat’s the big deal?!
    • I do this for others so they don’t embarrass themselves, why not do it for me too!
  • When people try to turn me into an extrovert AND/OR when people try to shame me for being an introvert
    • I don’t shame others for being extroverts, so why shame me for being me??
    • If you don’t understand introverts, either educate yourself, or keep your mouth shut
    • Don’t call me a “party pooper” or try to help me figure out why I can make it to a party instead of making “excuses”
    • I don’t want to take part in social situations, it makes me very anxious, and I’d rather spend time with myself – deal with it.
  • When people tell me I’ll change my mind about not wanting children
    • This feels like an insult to my intelligence
    • I know me better than anyone else and I know what I want and don’t want, not you
    • Some people just don’t want children, and that’s perfectly fine
    • I don’t tell others that they will change their mind about wanting children, so please don’t do it to me
    • I’ve known for a very long time that I don’t want children, and yes, my husband and I have discussed it in depth both before and after we got married
  • Bullies
    • UGH, bullies are the worst, aren’t they?!
    • People that have to put others down just to make themselves feel better, DRIVE ME CRAZY
    • That’s so rude, don’t do that!
    • If you need to make yourself feel better, why don’t you ask for help, or research for yourself how to feel better…maybe try some daily positive affirmations, or journaling – don’t make someone else feel like crap for your own benefit
    • Being a bully doesn’t make you a bigger person, it makes you a very small, weak person

What chaps your cheeks??

I also filmed a video about this topic: